On the Brink...

i have been severely struggling with this issue of my temper for a while now. i think it has actually ALWAYS been there, i just never was under enough pressure for it to be manifest. we like to all think we are generally "good people," when the truth is, the Holy Spirit moves in the midst of our hearts and begins to (at times) reveal to us hidden sin that is in our hearts that we are not even aware of them being there. anyhow, i basically have cried, mourned and repeatedly wept bitterly over this issue, virtually for months now.

JSM is teaching on the book of romans chapter 6 right now and they are discussing how the power of the sin nature has been broken on calvary. but i am finding that it is simply upon the Holy Spirit revealing truth to the Believer's heart...we desperately NEED understanding and knowledge on things like this in our lives in order to overcome these things.

I think i am standing on the brink of healing waters though! i am getting to a place where i am realizing that this issue is starting to go away, but it hasn't completely just LEFT. the symptoms have diminished, but have not evaporated. and the thing that i am finding is that i am just simply going to have to put my faith in Jesus Christ and what He did for me on Calvary as being ENOUGH to cover this sin and trusting that as i grow in the Knowledge of this Sacrifice that was made for me, and as i continue to hang onto this Message, He will take that away from me. I think what i am realizing is that my losing my temper is just a "symptom" of the sin nature ruling in my life. simply because i still don't have a working knowledge of the fact that this is really truly NOT the way i have to behave.

i think this is the hardest thing for me to have to grasp actually! it's not easy to trust that what Jesus has done is enough when i am still able to see my failures ever before my face on a daily basis. because what i am seeing is that i will NEVER be fully without SOMETHING that God is revealing to me. There will always be something that i am having to overlook and apply the Blood of Christ to, in order to maintain my faith in Him, His sacrifice and KNOWING that it is FINISHED! His Blood is enough. Even when my sin is ever before me, His Blood is enough to save my soul. It is enough to cover my sin, and it is the place that i end and He begins. Sin is finished, abolished and dead. No longer allowed to haunt and taunt me. I am risen in the newness of life, risen unto Christ. He has brought darkness into Light, therefore i am ever ALIVE IN CHRIST. I'm on the Brink of this reality!

I praise you Lord. For through YOU and what you have done for me....i have the victory!!!!

***in lue of this subject and my quest to understand more about how the sin nature has been overcome in the lives of Believers, i am going to be going BACK over Romans 6 and not only discussing my findings as i study, but also discussing what i might be experiencing and going through trial-wise, in hopes that it may help someone else down the road. i am finding that it sure is helpful to have the testimonies of others when learning the Word of God...it helps us apply it to our daily lives...at least it does so for me.***